I can't focus the study when my mom's health is hanging on a thread. Yes she's very sick. I'm so afraid that I'll lose the sight of her mild temperament and lightness she exudes. Since I'm 100000 miles away from home the only plausible effort is to give a call.
And I called.
And the common lines of conversation streamed out. She said that she's fine, except the 'spiritual stuff' that never give up on her. Countless help had she seek and the demons never kowtow to the power. Contrariwise, the demons strike harder and the pain went critical.But as I called her she really sounded fine. And she eagerly asked about what to ship here. And I specially requested some spices and mixed ingredients for our cooking.
She did not ask if I'm healthy. Or anything else. Her major concern was the shipping, which going to take 3 months from home. But I called just to get over the bugging feeling of 'spirit absence' here. I miss her and my family, but the response was like, ergh, I should not say.
Its true I spend my time pining for them. But I don't know if they care.
They say that "absence makes heart go fonder". Now I doubt that.
*sobs*
If my family really ditch me, I don't have anyone else to turn to. I have no girlfriend, no whatsoever. And my best friends aren't here to crack jokes together, or spend the weekend eating kebab together.
Don't ditch me. Because I'm so desperate.
