These days when my tiredness is beyond repair.
But i cant resist these jobs. They gave me a sense of accomplishment, a daily dose of contentment. They make me feel alive. Its good enough to be able to live with little reliance on my parents. I need to keep doing this, living on myself and show them Im a grown up. Not that I need to prove being one, but its a good change from a bummer hoarder to a working hoarder.
Sure i miss the good bits of not having a job like absolute liberation of time, but money was a bit tight. Thus i cant go out as much as i wanted to, marooned in the empty house filling the void left by my working/at school homies. That didnt feel good at all, for i am a guy who fancies adrenaline and adventures. My friends would know so.
Apart from the harrowing emptiness, i dont mind staying at home. Theres the internet, tv and cats for my toys and entertainment. But i miss connecting with people and the world, plus i need money so being jobless is painstakingly difficult. So i have to make the most of this job and not to decline any teaching offers.
I hope for the last month of the year, let me have a bit of fun, my way.
