In the height of jittery

Tried so hard to read, but when Wednesday is approaching as every single moment ticks, I could hardly contain my fear. For me, every Wednesday is Judgment Day. I'll have my ENGWRIT 101 tutorial, and 2 major lectures before that. My day will commence as early as sunshine beams, and I could never be more restless as the lectures begin.

This Tuesday afternoon, I'm trying to finish it, once and for all, my reading and note-making for tomorrow's lecture. I don't want to come unprepared. Like I always did. Embracing the notion of 'a changed person' takes time.

In the height of anxiety, everything I do seems sleazy. I wonder what future holds. Hopefully Neil is nice tomorrow.