Today is Mother's Day. So I'm gonna spill the past that we had together.
When I was young I was a crybaby. I was a difficult child, I could hardly leave you out of my sight. When I was 7, you got me into a different school than yours. Don't you remember my relentless cry every morning as you leave me at the school gate? That I shamed you? Oh, actually I followed the car until I couldn't get any closer.
Remember when I was in Year 5 and I said my first curse, which was 'bodoh'? Then you clawed my face with some fresh chillies? Yep it was really painful but that made me watch my words. And the next day in school, my friends pitied me as if I was attacked by some monsters.
Remember when I was in Form 1 and you applied the hostel for me? That I actually cried a river every night and dreamed about you all night? I was having a hard time adjusting. Sometimes during 'riadah' time I climbed up a hill to fill myself with sadness, staring deep into wide azure sky with thoughts about home. Such a baby!
Remember those fights we had, those really tragic ones that sometimes you almost disowned me? I know I was self-absorbed. With all the luxury people poured on me, I felt like the king of the world. With the instant love and care people shower on me, I forgot the real source of LOVE.
Remember last year that I got my first teaching job, and I was blinded by the money I had and threatened to leave home for some vague, unknown settlement? Sorry that I made you cry countless times. Being bad is my flair. I know that you always prayed that I'll become a reserved, composed person with integrity. Perhaps I refused to understand.
I didn't realize that from your upbringing I am this successful. Perhaps less successful from some, yet quite an achievement for me. For someone with an ordinary background. Sometimes I brag too much that I forgot my true identity. Who is a son to a mother, who likes to see his son be modest.
But you must remember that I LOVE YOU regardless whatever stupid, bizarre things I do. With you, I'm always a little boy, so pardon my mistakes.
Happy Mother's Day.
Sincerely,
Your son.
