Solitude

Two weeks passed. We are halfway through our summer school program. Ahhh, what a relief to know that we will not be seating in lectures anymore.

I’ll be leaving Alor Gajah for the practicum in Kuala Kubu Bharu. And the best fact is that, I’m the only guy in our respective group, which promises a delightful time there, since I can stretch my legs uninterrupted. And by stretching legs I mean doing that ‘thing’ that I restrained myself for 2 weeks, because my colleagues have watchful eyes. When I get fishy and stuff, they would raise their eyebrows, and that blocks my pursuit to do ‘it’.

Finally I can have the time for myself and my thoughts. And good doses of readings.

I love sitting by myself and doing my private activity, and by ‘private’ means to be kept personal. Hahah.. Dirty-minded people, watch your thoughts! Please don’t interpret my writing perversely!

Though I love sharing time and space with people and tight friends, solitude is in my nature too.  Like most people, occasionally we need some personal space to get along with ourselves, whom we've been neglecting when we are around our folks. Sometimes we forgot to seal the bond with ourselves that unconsciously, we are swept with mass thoughts. Which are mostly detrimental to our soul growth. Don’t you hear the silent scream beneath your soul? He’s crying for you, to listen to him. He misses you so badly, but you won’t turn your head even for a glance. Poor sad weeping soul.

Sometimes I spoke to myself, which some psichiatrists deem as insanity. But being insane is what we seek in ourselves, we discover our maximum potential. Like, for example, if I haven’t been doing all these ‘lunatic’ speeches to myself, I won’t be as english-competent as today. Or having a regular body figure like this.

By talking to myself, I am sparked to pursue the dream that have been buried long.

Therefore, for those great thinkers who suspect solitude as a simptom of insanity, clearly your thinking is not that great. I withdraw my compliment. Maybe you haven’t completed your course yet.

Don’t you get stuffy around people sometimes?