It is time to rant again.
#Practicum
Never thought this phase is going to drain so much energy, thoughts, and emotions. Never thought this journey would demand such a hectic lifestyle despite being in a school, like how we all used to.
So much expectations, so much workloads, so much interactions.
This insane working schedule will eventually summon my inner beast, the unruly behaviour that I want to tame. I'm exhausted and worn out; it is not long that I will show my true colours.
I can't wait to have a vacation, away from home, school, and work. I need to self-meditate and go on therapy. I need to recharge the good energy.
After this few months, I realised the true life cycle of a teacher. It is not just the content and the interactions. It is about maintaining the dynamics and keeping up with the fast-paced momentum the school has sustained. Goodness!
For people who said teachers are morons, or did nothing, try becoming a teacher for once.
#Relationship
How should I put this,
Life is a brief candle, says Shakespeare. Pray like there's no tomorrow, says the Prophet. I want to heed both ideals, yet to find a balance, it is like tiptoeing on the see-saw and maintain the stance.
Being a legit 24 y/o adult, I long for romance.
But my subject of affection, ugh, damn they are a hard catch. The closest courtship is probably stealing glances without proper eye contact.
I want that life-changing romance that sucks me in, drowning us in our own pool of love.
You came to me, take me in like a storm, and I would come out a different person, if we come out alive.
